I’m currently reading “words from a wanderer” it’s a great book, well I guess you can’t really call it a book. It’s more of a collection of notes and poems and sayings by the author but none the less it’s still great.
As I was in bed reading the other night one of the quotes jumped out at me and changed my entire week, and although the words are simple they are deep if you allow yourself to really feel them:
Dear self,
There’s a blessing in every breath you take. Even when it’s hard to breathe, you have yet to suffocate. I commend you for your endurance even when the air is thick — keep breathing, keep loving, keep going…”
Love,
Self
As I read the last word all I could think about was all of the shit that I allow to consume me. Things that either won’t matter in a week, a month or a year or even worse things that are simply so far out of my control that even if I did attempt to try to change them it wouldn’t make the slightest of a difference….so why not keep breathing, keep loving, keep going?!?
I dove into my week wide open with this mind set and just allowed myself to be 100% present in the results as they unfolded beautifully.
I helped a student build confidence in a situation that I could have just let go. I found a solution that worked without ever making the student feel defeated. I relished in happiness for hours over the outcome of the solution and the gratitude that was expressed to me from their parent.
I logged and prepped every bite of food that went into my mouth & body. I opted for a salad over a sandwich and organic over fast food. I fueled my mind, body and soul with everything it asked for and or needed.
I feel strong, I feel alive.
I laughed long and hard with two year olds as we rolled around stretching our bodies and exploring new movements. I watched and encouraged as each of them tried new things. I cheered and yelled and clapped as they did their double forward rolls or walked like a crab across the bars to show each of them how truly special they are to me.
I drank green tea every day at noon and buzzed blissfully in the high.
I drove in my work van with the windows down and music up as I traveled from school to school, class to class while listening to country music and re-living some of my favorite memories from our time spent at stagecoach.
I watched as 6 of my advanced students gained the courage to throw a backhand spring on their own. I waited each time (stomach in knots) knowing they were ready (but scared maybe they weren’t) as they sprung backwards down the cheese, some successful some on their heads. I cheered and screamed and jumped up and down while applauding their courage and strength as they wanted to do more more more.
I had a photo shoot with Penny our best friends bulldog that just turned a year old. I made Colt put a pink hat on her, staged a fake pink cake while positioning her gift all in hopes to make our best friends smile and know how loved they are as they went through a difficult time.
I washed, dried and put away all the laundry (and it’s only Friday) which means happy weekend to me!
I enjoyed a glass of wine and a beautiful fancy dinner with my best friends and husband on a week night. We even ordered dessert (and yes, I tracked all the calories…)
I made home-made tacos with Colt and then snuggled on the couch with him and Kai while watching our DVR episodes of law and order svu and criminal minds.
I ran a few miles each day and watched happily as Colt got his stride back and me my running buddy.
I said a prayer as I got into bed beside Colt and Kai each night and felt my heart grow three times its size with love, happiness and comfort.
…and lastly I realized that the way we think of others is not always the same way that they think of us. Relationships change, people change, and just because we choose to accept this does not mean we are disregarding or belittling the hurt and sadness that this reality brings to us, but instead we are just choosing to make a conscious decision to focus on the good rather than spend our time stressing over things that are ultimately insignificant and/or out of our control.
Until next time keep breathing, keep loving but most importantly keep going…Balance is Everything!