I woke up this morning around 6:54am…on my own. My first immediate reaction before my brain could really even register what was going on was panic (what time was it and have I over slept) followed by a quick and sudden feeling of peace and comfort (ahh its Sunday) followed by a whole lot of feelings about how I felt about that. I rolled over and heard Kai sigh loudly (I had disturbed her spot of slumber which happens to be in my lower back). I snuggled up and kissed Colt gently on his cheek. He smiled as it silently woke him up, again I thought how nice it was to wake up on your own.

My point is I am woken up five if not six days a week at a ridiculous hour by the most annoying intruder which also happens to be my alarm clock. Every morning without fail it goes off (always way too early and loud) and to the sound of “time passing” tick tock, tick tock as if I’m not already vastly aware of how much time is being stolen from me. I turn back to Colt and I can feel my “hippie free bird” side coming out as I state “I have decided I am no longer a fan of morning intervention and I would be much happier if I could wake up on my own free will every day and I don’t mean sleeping until noon but maybe until 7am …at least” he smiles and mumbles something about how much he loves me as he drifts back off to sleep.

My mind is awake now and going back to sleep is a distant memory but my mood is light. I can’t help but feel the difference. It’s amazing how much easier it is to prepare for my day without fearing the sound of the dreaded alarm.

I know I have to get up and run and feed & walk the dog and do laundry and clean the house and I’d LOVE to make it to the beach before the pats game and before I have to go to work yet I still just lay here until Kai barks. I know she’s up now and hungry. I gladly get up and feed her, glance around the messy house and head back to bed. I crawl in and Colt smiles and says “I’m glad your back…”

I know my list of things will get done but for once I am not in a race against time. I smile and close my eyes, in that moment I am free (defeat at last)!